Moodiness and guilt. /
We shall celebrate Tammy and Kristine's birthday tomorrow! Yehes, Kristine talaga. Gateway again! Haha.
11.17.2006
Una, ayaw ako payagan. Gastos naman daw. Ang daya nga kasi dati pa naman ako lakwatsera. When I was in Grade School, I can go to 'wherever in Katipunan' after classes and go home around 5:30. Kahit walang paalam, sige, go. And since hindi naman masyadong mahal yung food nun, kahit hindi na ako humingi ng extra money, ok na.
Ngayon, iba na. Sa sobrang mahal, kailangan ko na humingi ng pera. And nakakahiya kapag ganun. Kailangan ko na rin magpaalam, kasi ayaw kasi nila ng tatakas ako.
I tried again to ask for my Dad's permission. Tinanong niya kung sino sasama. Sinabi ko. Pagiisipan daw niya muna.
Medyo high ako last night kasi tumawa ako mag-isa. Naasar si Dad tapos sinermonan ako kung bakit daw ako tumatawa.
I got frustrated and locked myself up in the bathroom and cried.
Lekat, tumawa lang galit na kaagad? Parang bawala na maging masaya sa bahay na 'to ah. Kailangan seryoso. Kailangan tahimik. Blahh.
Paglabas ko napansin ng kapatid ko na medyo lumuluha ako. Tinanong ni Dad kung bakit na naman. Naiyak na naman ako tapos sinabi ko kung bakit. Tumawa lang kasi ako galit na kaagad. Hindi mo naman alam yung rason kung bakit.
Instead of saying sorry, he just said: Tumigil ka nga diyan. Nagiinarte ka na naman.
Pucha naman, walang sorry? Leche. Kumain na lang ako tapos umakyat sa taas. [Pagkatapos ko gawin yung chores ko siyempre.]
This morning, tinarayan ko talaga siya. I answered shortly and politely.
Habang palabas ng gate, tinanong ko ulit siya: Pwede pa ba ako bukas?
Pause.
Sige.
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I'll be absent sa Monday! We'll be soaking up the sun in Subic! Woohoo! To my dear Filipino groupmates, good luck in our Puppetry-Sainete presentation. ;)
Now you understand what it's like to dive.
Take it back, taken back, she forgets you.
Now she pleads: "Forgive me again, it's the last time I will..."
6:47:00 PM
Take it back, taken back, she forgets you.
Now she pleads: "Forgive me again, it's the last time I will..."
6:47:00 PM
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